Good Bye Jen, and Thank You...

I've been wanting to say farewell to my friend Jen who died unexpectedly. My first reaction was to return to blogger immediately and say good bye. Several times I even started to write something only to get overwhelmed with thoughts of my interactions with Jen. After a few tries I decided to get some distance from her passing, so that my grief wouldn't dominate my thoughts.

While collecting my thoughts I took some time to look back through my blog. It is full comments that Jen made over the years. Comments that show how smart, funny and caring Jen was. I'm lucky to have some of her thoughts to keep to remind me of the support and laughs she gave me over the years. I am very sad that there won't be anymore. I never imagined a day when she wouldn't be just a click away.

So thank you Jen for the support, the laughs, the trust, most of all the friendship and so much more. I only wish you could have seen yourself the way the people who loved and knew you did. You were way smarter than you realized. Your loyalty knew no boundaries. You gave support when it was needed, the way it was needed. You had a special gift for that. Yes, you were a unique person. You didn't want to watch the world burn but you certainly weren't going to let it push you in a direction you didn't want to go either. That fascinated me to no end about you. You struggled everyday to be a better person, without realizing the tremendous value people already knew you to be.

Goodbye my friend. I hope you are with your grandfather now.  I hope you can still catch an episode of MASH and Dr. Who when you want. I hope you can see how much you were loved and missed by those you left behind. Most of all I hope you have found the peace you were always searching for. Rest in peace my friend, you will be missed.