Looking Through a Fool's Eyes
Jen's comment on my last post, made me realize I haven't posted in awhile. The truth is I'm painfully aware that I haven't posted anything in some time. In fact, I've been thinking about this blog a lot recently. A few things have happened in my life that I would love to blog about but I'm not sure how to do that and be fair to the people involved.
Over the past few months I have had to deal with situations and emotions that until this point in my life have been rather foreign to me. Maybe that's why they had such an effect on me. I assumed I was immune to certain aspects of life... unfortunately, I now realize I am not.
After all is said and done the main question I'm left with is this - why do we let things go on when we know they aren't right? And if we simply played them out to their logical conclusion we would know that acting like we don't know, even when we do, won't save us from the inevitable outcome. Is it laziness? Is it denial? Is it hoping something will come along and magically change the situation? Or is it, as I fear it is, simple desperation.
Being made to feel like a fool is a horrible feeling. But realizing you played the fool is worse. I knew... I'm the king of knowing. I always, always, always try to see situations from the other's point of view. Yet, I could not force myself to conclude what was so damn obvious. We ALL have a part of us we don't show to everyone. Sometimes that part of us never sees the light of day but on occasion, we find a place, a person or situation where we feel this part fits. We let it out... and it can feel sooo good.
4 comments:
You're so sweet. I'm NEVER fair in my blog. It's MY flippin' blog and it's the ONE FLIPPIN' PLACE where I don't have to be fair if I don't flippin' wanna be.
You too, you know.
And for the record, I don't think it's "desperation." I think it's hope. Simple, pure hope. And that's not foolish.
Having lived the Emotional Supernova, all I can say is think carefully before you start the reaction. Sometimes things fizzle out on their own.
And we are always here for you.
Sometimes you're so busy trying to see the other person's point of view you forget about your own.
I agree with, Daughter, where she says that it isn't desperation, but hope. I'd like to think that's what it is and why we all hang on to it so tightly.
You know my opinion on this subject.
Again, quoting Daughter, we are always here for you. To vent to, bounce ideas off of, or just to help distract you from what's happening.
And I think you can blog about any situation because you're not required to be fair to all parties when you're telling your side of a story. You can blog about your take on it, without us thinking poorly about the people in your life. (I hope that made sense.)
*hug*
TT has an excellent point - trying to be fair to everyone usually leaves that person at the bottom of the pile. Good luck with whatever is happening RT, hugs from Ireland. Oh, and 'better in than out'...write it, write it somewhere even if you don't write it here. Sometimes you need to see it on the page to see how you feel and see what it is with some perspective.
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