Yet, another
I'm posting this before I watch it, so forgive me if things go bad.
Lou seems to be enjoying this as much as I am so I put her in it as well. I hope the picture I pinched off her blog is actually her. :|
The way I think about what I think
I'm posting this before I watch it, so forgive me if things go bad.
Lou seems to be enjoying this as much as I am so I put her in it as well. I hope the picture I pinched off her blog is actually her. :|
Labels: 200th post, Rant, WTF
Every year the wife adds something to our Christmas decorations. Usually I don't give it to much thought, except for having to put it together or hang it up. This year she added the nice little welcome sign you see below.
I know it looks cute and harmless but it's not. In fact I HATE IT!!! ... Why you may ask? Go on and push the play button, go ahead it can't hurt you.
Doesn't seem to bad does it? Let me fill you in. It's hanging on the garage door. The door we use to enter the house and more importantly the door that is in my garage. So what, your thinking? Well here's your big "so what". THE DUMB THING IS MOTION ACTIVATED! Yep, enter the house you hear it. (push play) you walk around the garage you hear it (push play again) You try your best sneaky ninja move to not set it off, you hear it. (play it again Sam) Even camouflage is no match for this thing. (push play, play, play... )
The wife thinks its the greatest thing ever made because it irritates me to no end. It's quickly driving me insane. I can't even go out in the garage and pretend to be doing something because the thing goes off every step I take. Something tells me this wreath isn't going to make it to Christmas.
How many more days? *sigh* Push play... :(
After
Labels: Holiday, To Remember
Labels: Holiday
Well he did it again. Leonard Pitts, the columnist who is on the opposite side of almost every issue as I am, has written another brilliant column that has me thinking yet again. And about Hillary Clinton no less. No fair!
When I started this blog I had low expectations. I had read some fantastic blogs that weren't being read by anyone or very few. I knew I could never write anything that would equal these peoples efforts. To this day I can't understand why my blog gets any attention while these amazing blogs go almost unnoticed.
When I started this blog a year ago I was in a much different place in my life. I have moved on from that place and life is better because I did. I can't help but feel that this blog and all those who participated on it helped me do that. So thanks to everybody for the wonderful experience, that I never expected, when I started this blog.
Labels: blogging
One of the games we played was called speed ball. Each team gets on either side of a field. The object is to move from obstacle to obstacle until you can get the flag and get back to the beginning without getting shot. At the beginning of the game I told my son to stay with me and we would provide the cover fire for whoever went for the flag.
Labels: the kids, To Remember
After the input on my last post I decided to give the situation with my best friend some more contemplation. I'm anxious to get to the bottom of this problem because I have always thought of myself as a person who can see both sides of any situation.
Many had suggested that my upbringing had led to a conditioning that didn't allow me to accept my friends sexuality even though I was willing to tolerate it. I would have probably disagreed with this assessment but examples were given and a strong case was made. In the end I have no choice but to admit they are right. I can only vow to work harder for true acceptance of people's choices that are different than mine.
But there still was the other side of the problem. Was everything just me not being able to accept my friend being gay or did some of the problem have to do with the person and not his sexuality? Again, the comments from the last post were helpful and eye opening. I now see that not be accepting of ALL his actions is not the same as condemning his sexual choice. I can't say I agree with any of my friends 100% on all things, so why would I expect to with him?
Another good point that was brought up was that my friend is in a different place compared to me regarding relationships, any and all relationship are new to him. When I look at it in that light I can see a lot of what he is doing bothers me because he's being immature about it, not because he's gay. He's acting the way I would have acted in my teens. It's uncomfortable to watch and listen to a 46 year old man go through the awkward part of learning about relationships. I'll have to make a point to keep that in mind when I'm with him.
I think all the comments were great and could help me deal with this situation better but there is still one aspect of this situation I haven't wanted to address. What if it's him? What if to this point he hadn't had to reveal a part of his character that is flawed beyond my ability to accept it? Or what if some darker fears I have, but have refused to acknowledge, are the root of my problem with him?
After much consideration I think it's a combination of the two. I remember a comment he made the weekend the wife went to Disney World and we had spent some time together. We were talking about my cousin's son. My best friend asked how old he was now? I said "about 21" and he said "oh, that's my boyfriend's age." There was a little smirk on his face. Before I could stop myself I yelled, "that's sick!" He quickly shot back "me and my boyfriend aren't sick!" I said "I'm not talking about being gay, I'm talking about comparing my cousin's son, who I watched grow up, with your boyfriend." "That's what's sick!" there was a long moment of silence after that. At that moment I realized how young the guy he is dating really is. It bothers me.
My dark secret is that I am uncomfortable with him around my two boys. I honestly don't think it's because he's gay. I don't think gay people are pedophiles anymore than I do heterosexuals but he does have a preference for young lovers. Now that I think about it he has only dated very young guys that look even younger than their age. I have to say that I have my guard up when he is around my boys. That may be a hang up I have but it is based on some evidence. Since I am responsible for the well being of my children I can not take a chance. That would be irresponsible in my opinion.
So I have come to the conclusions that I'm not the open person I thought I was but can work on that. My best friend needs more leeway when it comes to his relationships because it's all still new to him. And I have to give some serious consideration to whether or not I can be close friends with someone I don't trust around my children. I guess I have some more thinking to do.